Why I Never Planned to Become a Tarot Reader on YouTube

Why I Never Planned to Become a Tarot Reader on YouTube

If you had asked me years ago whether I would ever speak publicly to thousands of people, I would have laughed.

Public speaking was one of the things I feared the most.

Even small situations- speaking in a meeting, introducing myself in a group- could trigger anxiety. I have always been a naturally quiet and introspective person. Growing up, I spent a lot of time alone. I was often more comfortable reading, thinking, or studying than being the center of attention.

The idea of putting my voice and face on the internet for the world to see would have seemed completely unrealistic.

And yet, that is exactly what happened.

But it didn’t begin as a plan.

It began as survival.

In 2022 my wife and I were living in a rented house with our young daughter, who was not yet two years old. Like many young families, we were trying to make things work financially while raising a child and building some kind of stable future.

At the time I was working remotely doing data entry work. It paid the bills, but it wasn’t something that felt connected to my deeper interests or calling.

Then my wife lost her income.

Suddenly the situation became urgent. Rent was still due. Groceries still had to be bought. A child still had to be cared for.

Around that same time, I had quietly returned to a lifelong interest that had been with me since my teenage years: tarot and the study of symbolic and mystical traditions.

Tarot had never been something I treated as a novelty. For me it had always been connected to a deeper exploration of philosophy, mysticism, psychology, and consciousness. I had spent years studying subjects like Qabalah, Hermetic philosophy, Vedanta, astrology, and other symbolic systems that attempt to understand the structure of human experience.

Tarot became the place where many of those ideas came together.

At first I was doing readings informally on Reddit. Not for money, not for recognition, but simply for practice. It was a way to refine the craft and to help people who were curious about what the cards might reveal.

But when my wife lost her income, a simple thought appeared.

What if I just did the readings publicly?

What if I turned on a camera and shared them on YouTube?

It was not a grand business plan. It was not something I had prepared for. It was simply an experiment born from necessity and curiosity.

Maybe a few people would watch.

Maybe it might even bring in a little income.

That was the extent of the idea.

Still, the moment I decided to try it, the anxiety returned.

There is something very vulnerable about speaking into a camera. When you do it for the first time, you are painfully aware of every hesitation in your voice, every awkward pause, every moment of self-consciousness.

I worried about how I sounded.

I worried about how I looked.

I worried that people would think the whole idea was ridiculous.

Those fears are surprisingly powerful when you are starting something new.

But necessity has a way of pushing people forward.

I set up a small filming space in the unfinished basement of the house we were renting. It was far from ideal. The room was cold in the winter and sometimes I could see my breath while recording. The concrete floor and exposed beams gave the room the atmosphere of a storage space more than a studio.

But it was quiet.

And quiet was what I needed.

My wife and daughter even had to move carefully upstairs while I filmed because the floorboards were so squeaky that a single step in the wrong place would echo into the recording.

It was a humble beginning in every sense.

The early videos were simple readings. I shuffled the cards, spoke about the symbols, and tried to focus more on the meaning of the messages than on my own nervousness.

At first, very few people watched.

That was actually a blessing.

It allowed me to practice speaking, to get used to the camera, and to gradually move past the fear that had once made the idea of public speaking feel impossible.

Then something unexpected happened.

One of the readings began to gain attention.

It was a Taurus reading titled “The Fight of Your Life Is Coming!”

It became the first video on the channel to pass one thousand views.

For a large creator, that number might seem small. But when you are starting from nothing, it feels enormous. It means that real people, strangers you have never met, have listened to something you created.

That moment changed something.

It suggested that the experiment might actually work.

From there the channel slowly began to grow.

The audience expanded from dozens to hundreds, then thousands, and eventually far beyond anything I had imagined when I first turned on that camera.

Ironically, the thing I once feared, speaking publicly, became part of my daily life.

But the anxiety never disappeared completely.

Even today, there are moments when recording still feels a little surreal. The idea that hundreds of thousands of people might hear what I am about to say is something I still try not to think about too much while filming.

Instead I focus on the same thing I focused on in the beginning.

The cards.

The symbols.

And the quiet hope that something meaningful might reach someone who needs to hear it.

Because in the end, Dove & Serpent Tarot was never about becoming a public figure.

It was about sharing a language of symbols that has helped people reflect on their lives for centuries.

The channel simply became the place where that language found a larger audience than I ever expected.

And it all began with a simple idea that almost didn’t happen at all.

Turning on a camera despite the fear and letting the cards speak.